Okay, so it's another one of those nights where I fell into bed exhausted at 8:30 pm after Charlie so graciously helped me get the kids bathed and to bed, which I was glad he did because he kind of had a free weekend (he went to the NY Giants game with his dad, nephew and a buddy...once I get the pics I will put a post up)...Anyways, back to my point, so I am in bed at 8:30 and sure enough, midnight rolls around and who is wide awake??? You guessed it! So I thought it would be a great opportunity to write a quick note about something I read a little over a week ago today on yet another sleepless night.
It was probably about 2:30 in the morning and I couldn't sleep so I thought I would check the blog scene. It almost sounds like I am addicted or something reading blogs at 2:30 in the morning :) So I check mine out and think, wow I am falling behind and really need to update this thing but it was 2:30 int the morning and I kind of just felt like what my friend at work who got me started calls "blog stalking". So I take a peek at hers, because hers is so fun and she is soooo good at keeping it updated and then I remember about one blog she mentioned that she had linked to her site. It is a blog by a mother of four who recently lost her 18 month old to a drowning in their backyard spa (which they had only had for five days). I started reading this blog and literally was sobbing within minutes. The strength of this woman to endure the loss of a child and share her moments out loud on a blog are incredible.
A couple of entry's stood out to me. One was the most recent I had read and it showed a family picture of them all prior to the drowning. I think the week before they were at a family reunion and were able to capture the family in a photo. In her blog she claims that it is not the best picture of everyone but she was so thankful to have it. This entry just made me realize how important every picture I take is. In the day to day grind of work and home and everything else I hate to admit it but I forget so many of the little moments and it really takes me looking through my pictures to get that heartfelt smile of those simple times when nobody thinks I am watching yet I snap a picture.
The next entry that stood out hit me really hard and I found myself bawling in front of the computer, but it put so many things in my life in perspective. It was an entry that discussed one of the last days in the hospital with her daughter, if I remember right she was in the hospital for about four days prior to be taken off life support. The mother states that she asked her sister-in-law who was a proffessional photographer to come and take pictures of every inch of her daughter because she didn't want to forget a single thing about her. She posted one of her favorite pictures and the second she described it I went numb. It was a picture of three hands, hers, her daughter's and her mother's and she described that she was laying in bed with her daughter holding her daughter's hand and her mother was holding her hand. I lost it at that point and so many things came into perspective for me right there and then.
Our children are simply blessings and we should feel so lucky for every breath they take! I know in talking with other moms there are so many trials and tribulations that come with motherhood. We officially have a terrible two'er in our family that challenges us every single day with temper tantrums, destructiveness, you name it. I can honestly tell you after reading this blog they all just kind of disappeared from my frustration. It is funny how well you can receive a temper tantrum when you think to yourself, at least when he's done I can hold him, play with him and give him a million hugs and kisses because he is here with me!
I am writing this for all my mom friends, so when you think you are wits end with your kiddos, maybe you too like me will take a moment to be thankful simply that they are there with you!
I am also linking this mother's blog to mine under the "Blogs Worth Reading" in case anyone wants to read more, her blog is called, "A Daily Scoop". God bless her and her family for their loss and just making it through one day after another.